Warning: Very transparent vulnerability in this entry.
The week leading up to the interviews I was honored to do of both Marilyn Schlitz and Dean Radin was nothing short of horrible.
By the time I walked in to sit with Marilyn I was actually almost comically challenged. I had woken up that morning with my face swollen out so far that I wasn’t sure how I was going to drive to the interview, let alone meet these people face to face that I felt so touched by. I had had some kind of mystery reaction to a new facial product.
I know however that there is no such thing as singular cause and effect, and the rawness of my face was also a perfect outer expression of the inner pain and turmoil that had started exactly one week earlier when our family had stepped in to that horrible, quick, destabilizing, and rocky terrain of “you have cancer.” One of my dearest family members was back on the road that our family knew too well.
In the interest of privacy I won’t share publicly which family member we stood in heartbroken solidarity with, but I can say that the week centered on conversations of the terminal nature of all of us, living present now, and falling to one’s knees for Grace. I was reading, and posting online, about my intake of Marianne Williamson’s book “A Return to Love” as if it were nutrition. Because it was.
Four days into the trauma of diagnosis and the intense prayer for a healing miracle the family received a blessing of a phone call when we learned that there had been a misdiagnosis and that the cancer wasn’t the bad kind we thought it was. We were released into “relief” of a change of cancer diagnosis and the improvement of prognosis.
Perspective, God’s humor, Prayers and the Miracle of Love in action?
So by the time I was sitting there ready to interview Marilyn, face red and raw and puffed out, wondering if she was noticing but kindly not saying anything, I was ready to be raw and real.
The gift of her interview is what followed. It opened with me asking her about what she knew about the power of love, and she began by discussing studies that had been done about the effects of love and prayer on people with cancer. I kid you not. I sat there, even more raw, listening as she spoke directly to what had been going on.
Life certainly does provide the exact replica of what we need to see, feel, and hear doesn’t it?
The rest of the interview dove deeper in to the material at hand for Love Bomb, and as we got into the zone of the intense focus of a film interview, the attention on my own life scenario and raw face melted away as I was taken, we were taken, into the energy of love, forgiveness, and the journey of healing transformation into wholeness.
There is much I want to share from this interview and will be exposing in the film. The essence I can give you is that life always provides us with what we need to transform, and transformation is always in the direction of greater wholeness, if we choose.
That wholeness means we are not alone. We are one with life itself, with one another, with the earth we live on.
When we get into this place of wholeness we experience the core of healing, which is transformation of consciousness into this whole place of being. This whole place is what I am learning to refer to as Love. Service, the act of transformation to wholeness that we are featuring in the film, is a transformational practice in and of itself.
Marilyn shared with us about her research on transformation and the “destabilization” that occurs when a change happens in the statis of an environment, culture, or person. This destabilization offers the opportunity to heal to a new state of being as it offers the opportunity for new perspective, new feeling, and new being.
We were speaking of my own healing experience from 9/11 and how that event became something that ultimately propelled me forward into service and a life lived as if we are one big human family. We also spoke of the “destabilizing” we create in a community when we enter in and adjust thousands of people at one time.
She confirmed our feeling that with the intention of Love this destabilization can be a force that drives the community to a higher level of organization to wholeness. We can also choose to experience traumatic destabilization in this same way.
The rawness of the week continued as when the interview ended and we said our goodbyes we turned on our phones, to learn that the shooting had just occurred in Connecticut.
We had moments of quiet at that time. The moments for me were a reflection on the entire week, and the firm knowing that the film, the focus on Love, the commitment to sharing with the world about what we really are capable of as human beings when we connect to our Innate, our Wholeness, our Connection with Life, is as pertinent today as it was the day that the idea for the film was conceived.
We sat in the sun that day between our interview of Marilyn and our preparations to interview Dean. I with a certain surrender that happens when you have been forced to ponder the terminal nature of life, the prayers that knock you to your knees, and the humble surrender of letting go of looks to simply say, I am here, raw, vulnerable, present. I surrender to you Love. Life. I am your servant. Lift me up and walk with me.
We sat in the sun and we drank it in. We sat with gratitude. For being alive, and for being given the opportunity to make a difference in life through our passion to touch lives, and for all of the opportunities that Love Bomb has already brought into our lives. It is with a reverence, a humbleness, and a vulnerability that I post this Love Bomb “Report.” The experience of the commitment I have made to be carved out by this project continues, to offer to life a reality of Love Bomb rather than a replica.
May we light a candle in our hearts of Love for all who have been affected by the wounds of life, both public and private, and allow them to open us to the courageous humbleness of Love, which is the road to our human greatness.
Check out this clip that we put together for you of Marilyn, speaking about creating an “epidemic of goodness.” At this particular winter solstice this is a beautiful message, encouraging us to see this time, no matter the “why”, as the perfect time to open to our inherent unity, goodness, and love.
Marilyn is also working on a documentary of her own that I feel is going to be a transformational film called “Death Makes Life Possible.” Here is a link to the home page where you can watch the trailer. Death Makes Life Possible Trailer
Are you interested in learning more about how to participate in the making of Love Bomb? Here is our Indiegogo Campaign page where we are currently raising the funds to go into full time production starting in January 2013.
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